I need to be thinner and prettier and nicer and less depressed because I suck
I feel so fucking pathetic and stupid, I literally wanna cry until I run out of tears. Why did I let myself do this? Why did I think this was gonna be a good idea? Why do you always fucking do this to me? You’re thousands of miles away and I don’t know what you’re thinking and I feel like we got into this bc it was an in the moment thing and the minute you got to bootcamp, you immediately regretted your decision. I’m so sick of feeling like I’m not the only one on your mind. I’m so fucking sick. Like literally, emotionally sick.
Where are my friends to hold me and feed me ice cream and keep me from feeling lonely? I need that so bad right now.